Posted by Peter Guess on April 21, 2012 at 9:35 AM
Quit Day 16:
Going well. Urges less frequent. Less intense. And positive feelings & signs emerging. Recovery from Nicotine addiction is, in essence, like any other addiction - as I've had to discover...
I'm posting my experiences, both up's and down's as part of my journey in recovery. I've tried to quirt many times before. I started smoking only at age 40! Real weird. But that, I may comment on later. All I know is that when I started experimenting in my 40's, I passed through the "social" (using) and abusing phases very quickly and moved into the addiction phase, within months.
The programme I am using is the Twelve Steps from AAA. I therefore regularly do the following at this early stage of recovery:
- I admit I am powerless over my addictiion and that it makes my life is unmanageable (e.g. I do what I hate doing, spend money I can use elsewhere, my health is in shreds, my head is pre-occupied with smoking, I'm compulsive, I'm on edge if not smoking, cravings have become almost impossible to fathom and bear, and many more...)
- I have come to believe that a Power Greater than myself can restore me to sanity (balance, health, freedom from obsessive thinking and compulsive behaviour). This involves allowing people and God, as I understand God, to help and support and guide me.
- I ask for daily guidance and power because I have turned my will and life over to the care of God , as I understand God. This, with the two above points, is how I surrender and admit I cannot do this alone and I actively CHOOSE to NOT do it alone. Stubborn self-will and so called "willpower", create the illusion of control. This illusion is the main root of relapsing from all addictions, in my view.
- As a result of the above 3 steps of the programme, I share freely with selected people about my progress, in a humble and cautious way, to be open to wisdom and support.
- I express gratitude. Every clean day is a victory I am deeply grateful for. I thank God for the daily courage and wisdom.
- I share with others people to encourage those who may be battling with other or similar addictions or other life issues.
- I reflect and learn from the process of recovery and keep notes of lessons learnt.
- I use the Serenity Prayer frequently, when I battle with craving, stress or things beyond my control that may trigger a relapse or cravings.
THE SERENITY PRAYER
God, grant me the
to accept the things
I cannot change
to change the
things I can
to know the difference
- Attributed to Reinhold Neibuhr
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